Happy Spring! At least I think it is Spring. The weather has been so iffy, I dare not think it will be warm day to day. Eventually it will happen...right?
As we close out the month of April, I cannot believe all that has happened. It was a month full of emotional showers for sure. On April 4th, JP, our most beloved Bichon died. It is hard to believe it was almost 4 weeks ago. It feels like just yesterday and/or a year ago...depending on the day. His kidney disease really accelerated and eventually affected him neurologically. After 2 significant neurological events in three days, the vet made it clear that we had to make a decision for JP's care. Gabe and I cried so hard but knew that we would never want JP to be uncomfortable or disoriented, as he had become. So on April 4, early in the morning, he was euthanized. It has been a very difficult adjustment for us all to make, but we are getting through it.
The aftermath of JP's passing was difficult for everyone...for similar and different reasons. Isaiah really struggled with the fact that we adults were struggling. He was uncomfortable with our being so emotional...and it not being related to him. So he created ways for it to be related to him, making April a very challenging month, overall. We are finally all coming back around and feeling somewhat like ourselves, which is good...because we have an adoption to get ready for!
The date is set: May 31, 2011 @ 11:30am in Norwich CT. That is the day Isaiah will become Isaiah Carr! He has an outfit all ready and he has been practicing his new name. He has decided who he wants to invite to the ceremony and is getting pretty excited...as are we! We had our final in-home visit with DCF yesterday and that was a good feeling. Gradually we are starting to realize we won't have anyone to micromanage our lives...and make "helpful" suggestions about how we handle things. We will be free to screw it all up on our own!!! YEHAW! I feel as a parent I should be granted the right to screw up without it being documented, thank you very much!
Isaiah is finishing up his preschool year and growing leaps and bounds, academically and socially. The preschool program he was involved in this year was tremendous in so many ways and he is a school lover right now because of it. He is so invested in moving on to Kindergarten...so much so that he has been practicing flash cards to help in a couple of areas he is lagging...lower case letters and double digit numbers. He WANTS to be ready!!!
So, we are looking forward....to May. To recovering from the loss of our pet, to warmer days and to an official welcome of our son. Finally, it feels normal to say that. I've always hesitated because, in fact, he was not my son. Soon, he will be.
Until then...
ps...i won't be removing JP's signature from the blog. not quite there yet!
